Crushes are like Trans Fats; when you have them, your body doesn't know what to do and how to digest it, and it stays in your body forever.

I

Am

A

Clumsy

Piece

Of

Shit.

I get so frustrated with my body

With its appearance

With its lack of motivation to let me touch my toes that way or bend my leg that way or crypt walk that way.

I wish my parents let me do dancing when I was younger

Better now then never though

I've never really found myself attractive. Past lovers say that they think that that's cute about me; that I don't have any confidence when they find me so attractive. Whatever gets the ladies, like they say. HA.

I found that a lot of creepy girls have crushes on me; which is awkward. If you don't know why it is awkward, lets have a talk about that. And they don't get over me, I think. It's not like I'm cocky and saying that I have all these girls over me and I'm just breaking their hearts. Because I don't want to. They just seem so dumb to me. And I hate it because I feel like I'm fucking with people's lives like how you fuck with my life. I mean I could just be over interpreting things, but the way they look at me with their eyes is how I looked at other people when I felt the same. That I-wish-I-could-be-with-you-know-and-make-out-with-you-but-there's-no-way-in-hell-it's-ever-going-to-happen look.

I'm not looking for you, just sometimes wanting you. Whoever the hell you turn out to be.